Talk about being Happy

Two weeks left.  Crazy how fast time goes.  I've been here for five months.  I'm barely ever home anymore though.  Jordan and I have been doing crazy amounts of activities lately because his friend is visiting from Maryland.  We've packed in so much fun stuff into not enough time!  The only problem with that is that time has been going by really fast. So my days seem really short, even though I've been waking up between five and six everyday.  Yesterday was Jordan's birthday and it was a freakin blast.  We had an awesome breakfast, both guys got to nap, pb and j for lunch, a hike to a waterfall where Tim got to jump off, a really nice fancy dinner, and then out to a cool ass bar call Rum Fire where I had a Lava Flow delicious concoction!  Yum!

Its a cool feeling being sure of yourself with someone.  Feeling super comfortable, and knowing that you can say whatever on your mind (which I do anyway) and not have to worry about that person judging you in a rude, mean, or upsetting way.  Its not very often when you are able to just be yourself.  You know how at school you have to be proper, can't say the wrong things in front of other teachers, or let them think that you don't know as much as they do. When I was at the bar I wasn't necessarily on my best behavior, it was more that I had to be more accepting of things that I might not normally be comfortable with.  Luckily I could dress exactly how I wanted to with bright colors, spandex shorts, and knee socks.  Even at crossfit I feel like I have to act tougher than I am.

Actually it seems like every place I move I am a little different part of me.  The way I dress most specifically, not so much how I act.  I display the different sides of me.  Pants in Rochester, dresses at home, spandex in Hawaii, teachers clothes in New Mexico, anything but normal clothes in Australia.  I like the me that is here.  I like how I feel in what I wear and how comfortable and confident I am in what I am wearing.

I like how comfortable and confident Jordan makes me feel. Its pretty awesome actually.  It makes me wonder what I was doing with some of the past guys that I was dating...  Ones that didn't make me feel appreciated, or weren't trying to impress me after the first few days. Its not that easy to win someone over, its kind of like a lifetime thing.  Make them feel awesome forever and they should (or at least I will) treat them accordingly.  Relationships are a two way street.  Why would you not want to do a million and one awesome things for the person you are with?  Why would you instead get in a huge fight with them because they dont want to stay out as late as you, and they didn't bring you any beer home?? (this weekends discoveries of bad relationships 101) Treat other people how you want to be treated.  As Momma Gena has taught me, "If you are confident in your body, feel great in what your wearing, you emit an aura of awesomeness and people will notice.  If your man calls you a goddess and treats you like one then the way you treat him will make amazing results."  And then time together will be that much better.

Jordan is the first mature guy I've been with, and he has his shit together.  Oh boy oh boy I'm excited!

On another note, Take life how it comes and enjoy it.  You only live once, so if on your birthday you want to go on a hike instead of the gym then freakin enjoy it.  Whats more memorable; going to the gym, which you do everyday, or hike to a beautiful waterfall deep in the woods.  If you want to eat brownies for breakfast one day, fuck it, get right on in there! If a movie sounds really good and your bed is looking extra comfy, just enjoy it.  Life goes so fast, and you'll find yourself working really hard, especially sometimes at jobs that you don't really even enjoy. Enjoy the time off, and smell the warm breeze around you.  As the great poet Keysa once said, "Life is a marathon, not a sprint."  Take it slow and look around.  You might find something exciting, or even the "one" :)