"Find someone who isn't afraid to admit that they miss you. Someone who knows that you're not perfect, but treats you as if you are. Someone whose biggest fear is losing you. One who gives their heart completely. Someone who says I love you and means it. Last but not the least, find someone you wouldn't mind waking up with you in the morning, seeing your wrinkles and your gray hair but still falls in love with you all over again."

The final post

Well its been a year.  Over a year actually.
I leave this blog with a reflection: Did I accomplish what I set out to do this year? My goal was to find a larger part of me, to figure out more about who I am, and how I can be successful.

I highly recommend reading the book "Into the Wild" and/or watching the movie.  Take that motivation and do something with it.

From Rochester to Hawaii.

Hawaii, Amazing Hawaii.
From Hawaii to Colorado, which brought a trip across the country, through Utah, Arizona, and the Colorado Rockies.




From Colorado to South Carolina.

I've been really sad lately. It began in September when I realized teaching was not what I was expecting it to be. Its hard to explain working in a school where literally 95% of your students do not want to be there, and are being forced to be in school because of the courts. Either because they have been in trouble with the law or because their parents are facing charges. So hard to explain this experience.

I made some changes though and spend a lot less time at school, and am managing my time more effectively.  Day by day I am making it through, and am looking forward to the job I will be in next year. My first goal of 2013 is to secure my teaching position for next year.  I plan on speaking with a few principals and making it happen as soon as possible.

This amazing experience happened this evening.  I felt pure undeniable breath taking happiness. A wide smile spread across my face, and I was content in where I am and what I am taking on in life. I know I can do it and make it through.  Even though much of the time I think about quitting and running.

I leave with this final thought.  This year has brought me a lot of joy.  A lot of amazing memories and times with some of the greatest people alive.  There is so much joy and happiness in the world, are you reaching out for it?  I wasn't for a while there.  I made some mistakes this year and some wrong choices that have created some holes that I still need to fix. I have no regrets in life. Everything brings me to where I am for a reason. Sometimes I think that I am here to inspire people.  I step into someones life, spice it up a bit, remind them how to be alive, and then leave them to their own self workings. I have loved and lost due to this, but I would not give any of it up for the world.  The thanks I get is worth it to me, and I hope I can continue to be me; the real me. I always know when my full bodied self is not present, and it makes me sad.  How do I keep myself on my path?  This year will be about me maintaining this path and taking the larger steps to get somewhere on it. Find the joy in today, see all the happiness and grab it.  Take hold of it and don't let go.

Please comment about the past year of my saga of Imagine Your Life Now.  Tell me if it made any sense to you, motivated you in any way, or peaked your interest.  Anything really. I would really like to hear your thoughts about it.  Of course I am already thinking of the new beginning I will be creating in the next one, so any modifications to be made should be noted. <3