Enjoying what you have - Don't take it for granted

Let me start with saying that there are over 100 people who read my blog.  That is just so cool.  There are people from 5 different countries, of course most from the US, but still, super awesome and it makes me feel like I should write something worth while.

I'm at Cassie's Aunt Beth's house for the night, so that we can wake up early and enjoy the day tomorrow, do some yoga, get massages, and spend some necessary time with her awesome grandpa.  How is it possible that you can be so healthy, take care of yourself, eat right, work out, do awesome things for other people, live a great life, do amazing deeds, and still have something that takes you earlier than necessary.

Life is so confusing that way, and I just don't really understand it.  I never really knew my grandparents, and have really never known anyone very well that has died.  I guess I haven't really been to too many funerals, and even if I have, its always been for someone that I wasn't really that close with.  I struggle to wrap my mind about it, so in turn I get very awkward when I am in situations when people are talking about it.  I never know what to say.  Thank goodness for hugs, because I have found that to be a good way to escape things, I hope I can keep it like that, and not say the wrong thing in the wrong situation.
What I am getting at here is that I need to enjoy what is given to me a lot more.  I feel like I am cheating the system by all of the things I have been able to do, and all of the things in my future.  I wish that everyone could appreciate the now instead of dreading it.  Who knows what is going to happen today tomorrow or next week.

My original plan for this post was to talk about Hawaii.  A lot of people have been asking me about Why I  left Hawaii, Why I didn't stay, and Will I go back? Well here is the long and the short of it.  I left because I knew this summer in Colorado will be amazing, and I just felt it was my time to go. I would love to go back and visit, but I don't think that I would ever move there, or stay for longer than I already did.  I noticed after a very short time that I wasn't necessarily appreciating what I had right outside my door.  I think this would be the problem with living in Hawaii.  Where do you vacation when you live in paradise?  I loved it loved it there, don't get me wrong, but I loved it there for some very important reasons.  My awesome sister, a new best friend and an amazing boyfriend that found me.  I loved it there because there are SO many things to do, and I would continue to do as many things as possible, but let's be realistic, I was unemployed for the last month that I lived there.  Once you are employed time seems to slip away, you no longer can just go out any time of day for a hike, and convincing your sister to call in sick from work means you also would have to call in sick. Weekends are then your only free time, and it is definitely hard to get yourself out to the beach every weekend.  Weird I know, all of you mainlanders are saying.  But that is true business.  I think I went almost a month with out enjoying the full beauty of Hawaii's finest beaches (which is .5 miles from my apartment) and that was only because I was exhausted from working about 14 days straight and then 11 more after that.  March was rough as you can tell from my inability to blog.  I guess what I am saying, to all of you who ask me why I am back in NY and not in HI, I may look like I belong there, and totally fit the blonde, surfer babe part, but its just not my home.  I need to make myself a home. I want a bed. That bed is in my future, and I see it coming!

Words of wisdom from Aunt Beth - Don't bring drama into your life.  Just live in the here and now, and don't worry so much about the future.  When the future comes you can handle it and embrace what comes. -  I have been worrying so much about the end of this summer and where I will get a job.  I have been working my butt off for the applications to Charleston to be 100% complete and sending in all of my necessary stuff.  Apparently I am still missing a few things and I am so worried that is going to ruin my chances of getting a teaching job there.  That would be worst thing.  But really what am I so nervous about?  I am ecstatic after a 20 minute conversation with a certain someone and giggle the entire time.  I shouldn't be so worried about what the end of this summer will bring.  Maybe I will get hired, maybe I wont.  If I don't, I shouldn't even worry, I'm Anna Banana and I will get a job no matter what.  Like Aunt Beth said, I'm just gonna live in the now and enjoy it, and see what it brings me :)

Effort

I noticed that the date says friday april 20th. I'm confused so just clarifying. It's actually Wednesday April 25th:).

So it turns out that my current writing effort seems to be going more into Jordan's emails than my blog. Interesting! I made it to Albany yesterday and today I'm staying with Allyson. So super great to be able to just show up at my friends houses and feel like we haven't missed a beat. Turns out she's been living with Tony for two years. Two years! Where have I been?? And she gets her masters totally finished in two weeks. Wowza. I feel like ive been missing so much lately. Well technically I have. So its so nice to have friends that accept my excuse "I was across the country" it's no lie really.

So let's talk about showers. Have you ever realized how many different types of showers there are?? So many! And I'm just talking about the shower head here. Ones that are soft and some that spray super hard. Some that spray wide and others that only get you in one area. But then there is this type I just encountered. It's like a mist, and it doesn't feel hot by the time it hits your body. It even creates wind in the shower. Like a super powerful mist. Hmmm what can I relate that to, like getting sprayed in the face by a garden hose when it has all those different settings like my moms and one is I think called must, but all you want it to take a drink from it, but instead it just sprays you in the face and kinda hurts. Yeah, like that.
I prefer a shower like Mary's where it is like a jet stream and pounds you in the head at full blast, stays warm or even hot the whole time, and washes your hair out super fast! Yeah, those were awesome showers I took out there. I don't like the weak kind that barely do anything and your just chillin waiting for the water to rinse you off. Takes way to long. Did I mention that I hate showering to begin with? Call me weird but I've always disliked it. I'm just being picky now for sure:)