Be not afraid of Greatness

This is the new cover photo for my timeline on facebook.  I saw this spray painted on the top of the second bunker at the pillboxes and it instantly caught my attention.  What is it about this saying that I love so much?  I don't consider myself to be great and almighty so everyone should be afraid of me.  I think it is more of an awareness that should be present at all times.  You never really know what you are capable of.  Achieving greater things that you had ever really imagined.  I still can't believe that I made it out of New York.  I feel like I escaped a lot of things that were lingering around me back there.  Its true that I wish I could have brought a few things with me, but its nice to be free of other things.  I miss my friends.  Its cool talking to them on the phone, or writing postcards or to them online, but its not the same. 

I haven't written because I have been busy for one, and two a lot of the stuff that I want to write about is becoming more personal than I was prepared to be sharing with someone that is reading a link that I post on facebook.  But I need to stop being so lazy.  I read an awesome post by a friend who likes to blog, and is crazy obsessed with crossfit and eating healthy.  She was basically yelling about how we need to shape up and actually do the things that we want to do.  Don't be lazy about working out.  If you want to get in shape, or just feel healthier and happier than just freakin do it.  Stop putting it off and waiting for something to happen to you.  You need to make it happen.  If you aren't happy where you are right now, whether its where you live, who you are with, or the job that you're in, then fix it.  Start working on applying for new jobs.  Search for a new place to live.  Start somewhere.  Please just don't complain about it.  It is so important to be happy.  Depression is something that my family struggles with.  I see it in my genetics and it is definitely something that I am scared of.  Sometimes I am just so sad.  There is no reason either. I don't have my period, I am not just being "moody", and I am not just being a big complainer.  I am just sad.  Of course there are things that cheer me up, and I am also good at hiding it.  But I know its in there and I have to fix it.