An update on School.
I guess I never put two and two together until recently, but talking to my three sisters has really helped me put some major things into perspective.
I move way to much
The grass is always greener on the other side, so I move
At almost every place I have lived, I have been teaching high school
At every place that I have lived where I taught high school, I have been pretty much miserable.
Not miserable with the place that I am living, but with my job.
I continue to teach high school math, even though from my track record I have clearly been unhappy at each job.
Hilton, New York - Brisbane, Australia - Colorado Springs, Colorado - Santa Fe, New Mexico - Charleston, South Carolina.
That is 5 different City/States where I have been totally unhappy with my line of work. Wait a minute, its not the place that I am living that's the problem, its my job! Maybe its me that's the problem, but lets be serious, I probably should not teach high school anymore.
So at Burke, I am basically a babysitter. My students don't stop talking for even a minute and I can't handle it. They are basically walking all over me, and I am doing nothing really to stop it. Its funny, I'm kind of just over it. I really wanted to quit again on Friday. Its interesting how overwhelmed I get at school. Or how overwhelmed I get in life in general. I am going to hang on until the end of the year at this school though. It would be a terrible life decision to give up one month in. But hey! I made it a whole month. Only 9 left! I can do this. And the Spring will be easier. Fuck this school. Sorry for the language, but screw caring SOOO much about the kids that don't give a shit at school. I need to focus on the few that do care and pay more attention to them. The only way I am going to make it through, is to make it through. I can do this! Just think about today as my sister Angela said this morning. Day by Day and then I will get there. My next day off is October 26th. Day by Day until then, and then the next thing I know it I will be seeing family for thanksgiving. Time to go play outside with Haley, and then make a collage of our pictures so far :)
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Fuck it! Love you. Just gotta find the right fit. I have accepted the fact that my effectiveness ends at around 6th grade. But I talk to people all the time who can't stand working with elementary school kids, they love high school! Let them take the high school kids. They will do a better job. And I will work with the el kids, cause that's what I do best, and then I'll quit this job and have my private practice or something like that soon.
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